God Works in an Amazing and Mysterious Way

Hey there, old friend (it refers to my blog)

I am so sorry for abandoning you
It's been a long time not checking you out
I was too busy to check another things out

People say time flies so fast

This year, i feel that time had taught me so many things in life

I've learned that as a human, we will never stop learning
God wants us to whether we like it or not
Whether we realize it or not

Have you ever realized that God always works in an amazing and mysterious way in your life every single day?

This year i found that i have realized that

Sometimes God gives you trouble that seems so hard to be handled by you
It makes you cry
It makes you angry
It makes you stress out
It makes you feel lost

He gives you that not because He hates you
But if you see the blessing in disguise, He gives you strength and courage

If there is no trouble in your life, how can you see how strong you are?
If there is no tears in your life, how would you appreciate a simple laugh?
If there is no cranky face in somebody's face, how would you notice the beautiful side of a smile?
If there is no illness, how would you appreciate a health?
If there is no heart broken, how would you appreciate a love?
And if there is no dead, how would appreciate a life?

In my silence moment, i spontaneously think how amazing the way God works in my life
I'm not a saint
I'm not that religious
I just have my own way to believe and communicate with God

In my daily activity, i meet a lot of people
Same people and different people everyday

Some people come and go
Some people stay

But in each communication we make with other people, there's always an impact or value for us if you realized

Even when you go to a "warung" and buy cigarettes, the way you communicate can bring an impact in somebody's life
We never know what we will get from random people we meet everyday

I remember that i had written about "communication will take you further"
It is true

This year, i learned a lot about friendship, family value, work environment and love
I learned that God wants us to learn from every single thing we meet everyday

I learned that friendship is a priceless thing that i have to keep
It is more expensive than any jewelries or fancy cars
It's hard to find a true friend
People that accept you for the way you are
People who don't mind to tell you how sting you are when you don't take a shower but still there and hang out with you
People who laugh with you and at you but still there when you need a shoulder to cry
People who like you just the way you are and hate you at the same time but not going anywhere
People who don't mind when you leave them because you're busy taking care of your life but still there and support you when you get your heart broken

To be able to find a true friend, sometimes God gives you lots of obstacle
Sometimes, your greatest friend is someone that you used to hate the most
Sometimes, God have to take someone away from you to make you realize how precious this person as your friend
Sometimes, God gives you a painful break up just to make you see that your friends care about you and love you more than your previous partner who didn't treat you well

Not only your friends, your family too
I used to hate my family a lot last year
But this year, God gave me a lot of obstacles that lead me to them
I used to hate my brother so much
But this year?
God lead me to be closer to my brother
Surprisingly, now i can share my problems with my brother
We support each other
How come?
He basically the one that God sent to me when i was in trouble
When i thought that he would be the last person on earth who will help me out, APPARENTLY he was the first person who showed up and help me
Now i know that no matter how "un-ideal" your family is, they will always be there for you
They love you in their own way sincerely and naturally

My journey to finally realize how much i love my family whether i admit it or not is one of the most amazing journey that God gave me
God gave me so many situation that makes me so mad at them and at my life
But in the end of everything, God made me realized that i love them and need them more than i need money or other material things

I'm not saying that now i have a happy family life
I'm just saying that now i know that no matter how annoying my family is, i know i will always love them for the way they are

And how about love life?
This year was the year of my love life

I found someone that i really love
God lead me to find out what love is

How many of you who had experienced being in love?
Not just a crush, not just a fling, nor a "high school-i love you-thing"
True love

I guess we all used to say i love you easily to someone without even really sure that this is love

But this year is different

I found love
I fell in love
I love someone

The feeling that i never ever felt before

This person is an amazing person
My heart feels what my heart feels

Even though we are no longer together now
But i have a faith
This part, i can't say much

I think for this part, God still wants me to learn and be patient
But i have my own faith

I believe that God works in an amazing and mysterious way that will surprise you
In a good way

So, happy new year to everyone
Happy new year to all random people out there
Happy new year to all the true friends out there
Happy new year to all family out there
Happy new year, you... The one that always in my heart...
Happy new year me

Happy new year, God
Thank You for an amazing year and lessons

Believe in The Power of Mind

Hey there, my blog!
Long time no see!!!

Well, let's talk. I have a story. You can call it a motivational story or maybe a bullshit.
I don't mind. It's your call.

I used to be a cynical person. I like to think negatively.
In my head, i used to say "ya udah lah pikir yang jelek-jeleknya aja biar siap sama resiko terburuk, kalo ternyata hasilnya bagus ya Alhamdulillah".

Kids, don't follow that kind of craps!

Semakin dewasa, life would teach you so many things and make you wiser (hmm..hopefully).

Satu hal yang bisa disimpulkan:

UNIVERSE HEARS YOUR THOUGHTS AND THEY WILL BECOME A REALITY IF YOU DO BELIEVE IN THE POWER OF MIND

Gw pun akhirnya percaya akan hal ini setelah hampir separuh hidup gw, gw habiskan dengan menjadi orang yang skeptis dan sinis.

Kenapa gw bisa percaya dan menuliskan kata-kata tadi bukan tanpa bukti.
Sugesti? Mungkin.

But here are the stories...

One of my greatest friend made me believe about the power of mind.
Dia seorang perempuan biasa dengan zodiak yang sama dengan gw. Satu ciri khas dari zodiak kami adalah RUNGSINGAN.
Apa itu rungsingan? Nanti aja ya kapan-kapan dijelasinnya. Panjang dan sulit dijelaskan dengan kata-kata.

Well anyway, this particular girl has this deeply feeling for a guy.
She fell in love with this guy and it's getting deeper and deeper everyday.
Unfortunately, this guy wasn't really into her but they have to be at the same place for most of time because they have things to do together.
Basically, it sucks!
You have to be around someone you love (who didn't feel the same) almost everyday.
But for her, it's a bless.
She said "ngga apa apa lah. Bisa ngeliat dia setiap hari, becanda-becanda aja gw udah seneng kok".
Many of her friends told her to stop.
They said "Udahlah! Mau sampe kapan? Move on aja lah! You deserve someone better atau lo bakal capek sendiri nanti"

She didn't listen. In her mind she always says "Ngga kok. Gw yakin nanti gw pasti bakal sama dia. Gw percaya kok"

She took all the pain. She cried for so many times. She hold it by her self and keep hanging because she still believes it.

Two years later...
I went to see her to catch up after been busy with our own things.
I asked her "Hey, your tweet indicates something. You look happy. So who's that lucky guy?"

Surprisingly, she told me all the stories.
Penantian dua tahunnya terbayar justru di saat orang-orang akan mundur dan menyerah (in fact, itu juga yang hampir dilakukannya).
Dia bilang dia udah sampe di titik dimana pada akhirnya dia bertindak dan mengambil sikap dengan segala resikonya.
Di satu sisi dia pasrah, di sisi lain she keeps believing her positive thought.

Dan semua hal yang pernah dia bayangin dan dia harapin kejadian, terjadi!
Almost exactly the same like the way she wanted it (even better i think).

Dua tahun dengan kepercayaan dan postive thinking, and there you go! She hits the jackpot!
She said "Tuh! Lo harus percaya sama mind power. Justru di saat keadaan seolah-olah mengharuskan lo buat nyerah, di saat itulah lo harus bertahan dan stay positive"

And i've seen them both. They're a cute couple.

This story was just a part of the reason why i believe in the power of mind.

I had talked to many people.
Grown up people.

Many happy people are people who think positively.
They said "when you believe in something, the process will be hard. But hang on and keep your faith. Universe will hear and help to make your dream comes true"

Banyak hal di hidup ini yang tanpa disadari juga hasil dari mind power gw selama ini.

Dulu, gw cuma mahasiswa biasa yang ke kampus naik angkutan umum.
Setiap tahun gw punya ritual mengantarkan kado buat temen baik gw.

Tahun pertama kuliah gw dateng nganter kado naik angkutan umum.
Temen kampusnya bilang "Gila! Niat amat nganter kado doang buat lo"

Tahun kedua kuliah gw dateng lagi nganter kado naik motor.
Temen kampusnya bilang "Buset! Tahun lalu naik angkutan umum, sekarang naik motor. Tahun depan jangan-jangan dia naik mobil cuma buat anter kado"

Tahun ketiga kuliah...
Yak! Tepat seperti yang dikatakan temen kampusnya. Gw dateng bawa kado naik mobil kesayangan gw.
Temen gw pun cuma bisa senyum-senyum.

Hal kecil yang juga merubah cara pandangnya yang ngga kalah skeptis dari gw.

Banyak hal-hal kecil lainnya yang terjadi.
Here are the recap:

1. Dulu, gw pernah bilang sama diri gw sendiri "Kalo Imogen Heap sampe konser di Indonesia, GW HARUS DATENG GIMANA PUN CARANYA!" (Pada saat itu kayanya ngga mungkin aja gitu Imogen Heap bisa konser di Indonesia). Hasilnya: Gw lagi ngga punya uang sama sekali pada saat tiket resmi Imogen Heap dijual. Tapi gw tetep yakin (dan berdoa) kalo gw akan nonton. Sekitar H-2 gw pun mendapatkan 2 tiket konser Imogen Heap GRATIS.
2. Selain Imogen Heap kejadian yang sama juga terjadi di konser Muse. Hampir ngga kesampean tapi gw tetep yakin gw bakal nonton. And it happened. I got free tickets from a great friend of mine.
3. This is one of my greatest friend and me story. Both of us was dying to see N.E.R.D concert. But again, mahasiswa-mahasiswa kere ini ngga punya cukup modal. Waktu itu masih konser N.E.R.D pertama (rencananya). Hari H kita pun cuma bisa sumpah serapah dan sok yakin kalo konsernya ngga bakal jadi. My friend said "Ahhh pasti batal konsernya! Gw ngga rela!" Hasilnya: Konser tersebut batal beberapa jam setelah dia mengeluarkan statement tersebut. Dan ketika N.E.R.D dikabarin bakal konser di Jakarta (this one was for real) dia pun sedih karena belom punya uang buat beli tiket. Until that day i called her and said "Kalo gw kasih tiket NERD gratis lo mau ngga?" She was shocked and being silent for a while until she screamed "Ya mau lah nyet!!!" (somehow the word "nyet" kedengeran sangat manis saat itu) and then we went to the concert and she was like a little kid who got a new toy (the coolest one).

And the latest thing that woke me up and said "Damn!!! It was part of my mind power" was:
Hmm...
This one is the sweetest mind power that happened to me so far.
I won't share it.
Let me keep this one for me :)

So people,
I do believe in the power of mind.
I do believe that positive thinking will be heard by the universe
I do believe that universe will conspire to make your dream come true if you truly have faith (and keep praying)

Just like my friend said:

When everything feels like pushing you to give up
That's the situation where you have to hang on and keep your faith
There's always a reward for being patient